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Sunday, September 27, 2015

「2807」无言的泪




节日。

却涌出堵不住的忧伤。

三十分钟的时间,我感觉到了世界的瞬时倒转。那些你所不知道的事情,那些你一直忌讳的事情,总会悄然声息般漫然肆意。

W说,事业、家庭、健康,你要明白其中的取舍。有舍才有得。可手心手背一瞬的逆转,又何为可舍,何为不可舍呢。沉沦于现世的纠结,你却要明白岁月年华的流逝,因为你已滚出了肆意的青春年华。

我端起桌上的茶杯,小口饮下,苦涩入心。

挥手与W道别,看着远去的车影,我恍惚中仰头看着这座城市,冰冷无情,人影的攒动丝毫不受假期的影响,生存在这里,只能用跑。

看着左手食指的伤疤,我小心的摩挲着。凝思中,我开始犹豫起曾经来这个陌生城市的决定是否正确。潜意识里我止住了往下思考的意图,因为自我保护下的意思滋生了恐惧,而我也不想转身的背后留下的是自己掘下的深渊。

起身回家,虽未言明,我却明了,本心已开始动摇。

夜幕近至,恐惧袭来。迎风中,僵硬的背影也无法掩饰我那颤抖的双手。

19时,回家。

喝下一整杯白开水,气喘的心渐渐平复下来。瘫坐在沙发上的我,明白了固守的脚步总是需要前行,尘封的记忆总会开启,遗忘在过去的世界总会悄然回到你的身边。你始终无法逃离,无法撇弃。

挂掉父亲的电话,我忍不住对着这个世界嘶吼着。

妈,你看,楼上有个傻逼在流泪。

---End.

By Ryan. at 2015.09.27 19:41.

PS:

The Summer Breeze --- Yesan Damen

Late at night when I'm alone I feel you near
Back and forth I'm sure you've had it up to here
In all my weakness I see a need for the thorn in my neck
Looking back the call was close
Hung on every word you said

You carried all my pain
The seasons never change for you and me
We'll always be eternally
In the summer breeze

Being apart for days leaves others in suspense
Windows to your heart through my head make a mess
With all my secrets I see need for the thorn in my neck
Looking back the call was close
Hung on every word you said
You carried all my pain
The seasons never change
for you and me
We'll always be eternally
In the summer breeze the light of day
Through showers early May
For you and me will always be eternally
In the summer breeze