「3327」心，在颤动
"……康纳：我希望这一切都结束…我没法…我没法承受这一切带给我的孤单…我放手了。……恶魔：你只是希望结束痛苦，结束你自己的痛苦…你清楚知道痛苦真相的同时，却又有相信安慰人的谎言，这让谎言变得更为必要了…到头来重要的不是你想什么，重要的仅仅是你做什么。……"---《怪物召唤 A Monster Calls (2016)》
我望着铁栅栏窗，模糊的玻璃窗外，分不清清晨还是午后。我不知道我还要在这里多久，也不知道我为什么会在这里，因为它对于我来说，是一个始终无法想明白的事情。
橘红色的夜灯映入眼帘，我侧身转过黑暗，他说，你要学会习惯，至少在没有我的时候。
夜，22点。
11天后的今天，我总算盼到你了回信，看着静静躺在收件箱的email，手心泛汗，久久无法下定决心打开它。电脑屏幕暗下又被轻轻触亮，email主题上清楚的写着"春雪已去，春雨又来"，而我却失神的不敢前行，因为我清醒的感触到心底地黑暗沼泽又开始泛起污浊。
你是知道的，我是多么希望一切不会向悬崖走去。
我也不知道何时开始，胆怯地不再坚持曾经的承诺。我开始疯狂地期望何时能与你相见，急切地奔去远方，赶在下一刻钟声的响起之时见到你。
我害怕再次邂逅悔恨，深深地恐惧那种来不及的不告而别，更何甚是那有可能的永别。
午后静夜，愿我们还来得及相遇，在今世余生。
晚安。
---Ing.
By Ryan. at 2017.03.01 01:25.
©Ryan保留所有权利。未经授权，禁止转载。
BGM：Until The End (Acoustic Bonus) - Quietdrive
When I am gone I hope that you'll stay
Keep me close in memory
You can move on
With your promise of new
I'll be right here waiting for you
Don't forget me my love
My love
I won't forget you my love
My love
To the end of the world
And back
Until the end of time
No one can stop me
If they tried
The darkest days
The darkest nights
I won't stop until the
Day I die
Until the end of the world
My love
To the end of time
Eternity is so beautifully cold
I wonder if angels ever feel old
I'm lost in your eyes
I'm stranded at sea
You know you're everything to me
Don't forget me my love
My love
I won't forget you my love
My love
To the end of the world
And back
Until the end of time
No one can stop me
If they tried
The darkest days
The darkest nights
I won't stop until the
Day I die
Until the end of the world
My love
To the end of time
Don't be afraid when
Everything fades to gray
No, don't be afraid
I need all your love
I need all of your pain
Don't forget me my love
(My love)
My love
(My love)
I won't forget you my love
My love
To the end of the world
Down and back
Until the end of time
No one can stop me
If they tried
The darkest days
The darkest nights
I won't stop until the
Day I die
(Until the day I die)
Until the end of the world
My love
Until the end of time
(Until the end of world)
(My love)
(My love)
(Till the end of world)
(My love)
(My love)